Alone

Recently, I had a job as a hostess that I loved... But I wanted more $$, so I ended up getting a job with Comcast. The downside to that job was that I would be working weekends and most nights I wouldn't get home until my kids were going to bed. So, I turned down the job at Comcast after talking to my boss at the diner and being told that he would figure something out in order to keep me on.

That was almost two weeks ago.

So now I'm back to being a stay-at-home mom, which I love... Or used to at least.

But I find myself feeling so alone and out of sorts, kind of.... I don't get it.

It never used to bother me a whole lot to be 7 hours from my siblings and my BFF... But now I just want to be closer to them. I think mostly just to know that people I love and can rely on are close by if I need them.

I have a couple friends here, but after 8+ years of living here, I still don't have anyone I feel like I could just pick up the phone and say "hey, let's go (shopping, out for coffee, out for drinks, etc.)".

I would move back to NH in a heartbeat if we could find jobs for the two of us making enough money to survive... And a place that's reasonably priced. Things that I'm sure don't exist in NH.

So, here I sit in PA... Where we moved to be closer to my parents, who we never see... Alone.